For this week's blog post, we're doing Pure Emotions. I'm reading the book Red Thread Sisters. The protagonist of the story got adopted, so you could say that we have a big difference. Nonetheless our big difference, we still have similarities. When Wen got adopted, she had her family always around her, but she still sometimes felt alone and far away from them. I have a family that are always around me all the time, but I also always feel alone. Wen felt like no one can understand her. I seldom times feel that. I know my parents love me and all, but I can't help to feel alone. I feel like they would never understand me. This might sound really bad, but at times I feel like they don't even know me. They say that they love me, but I feel like they don't. Wen always felt like she was a burden. I also feel like a burden too. Especially every time when they buy me something and also when they pay for my tuition. Even if we eat outside I always feel bad. They're always wasting their money on me and it always makes me feel really bad. I also always felt like an extra, like what Wen always felt.
I know you've already said that you know your parents love you, but I want to reinforce that I'm sure that they do. What you're feeling is something that everyone goes through. I felt the same at times when I was about your age. I went through several years of depression. I knew that the feelings were "wrong" or didn't make sense, but that didn't make them go away.
ReplyDeleteJust hang in there! Those feelings eventually go away and things get better again. :)